When the World Just Doesn't Make Sense

Iris brings back memories. It seems to have made me fall back again.
The song takes on an entirely different meaning now.

"Cuz I don't think that they'd understand"

I hate how i feel,
I hate how every time someone logs onto AIM, I have to check to see if its her,
I hate how I hope she IM's me,
I hate how i hope that the text I'm receiving is from her,
I hate how everytime I'm with her, I want to hold her hand,
I hate how everytime i look at her, I want to stare into her eyes,
I hate how weak she can make me feel,
I hate how I want to stop, but I can't,
I hate how I can't let her go,
I hate her.
But I also hate how I really don't hate her at all.

This is me after many hours of thinking and being alone in boredom.